Saturday, October 11, 2003
Went to the school's gym again after physics remedial. While waiting for eric and js to finish chem lecture, decided to take a nap at the bleaches. Yesterday was still taking its toll on my endurance. Eyes shut, trumpets and horns woke me up on impulse. Haha just band practising their music. Gym training was extra tiring.. muscles already aching from a week of intense activities and soul weary from emotional climax and depression. As always, I'm happy that I've still friends that are willing to spend time with me and I'll gladly give my time to them too, even though the A's are just around the corner.
Tried the new Fish McDippers. I'm the Indesicive and Kiasu Dipper (it's imprinted on the paper that comes with the tray go check it out). Tried out the fish nuggets with TarTar sauce, Thai Chilli Sauce, Chilli Sauce, and even Curry Sauce. Can't wait to try out the upcoming wasabi sauce.
Went home and slept. Had already decided on jogging again at Clementi too. When I woke up in the evening, was greeted by an uncompromising stomach upset. Relieved myself of the Seoul Garden burden carried since yesterday to my relief. When I got to wingfat's place, eric and js were sleeping! so went with wf to jog alone. When js woke up he complained y nv wake him up lol. we tried but you refuse to budge your lazy ass haha!
Bought a grey cargo pants and a long formal pants at JP. Liked the cargo pants a lot. Gotta wear it soon.
Got rejected by Shuwen in Friendster. Worst part was I didn't get any reply or anything. LoL got rejected irl and even in the digital world. Only consolation was Jasper sending me the picture I took with her yesterday. I look retarded in the shot... wasn't looking at the camera... and my eyes was pinning off in another direction... no it isn't what it seems to be.... you know what you're thinking but that's not what I was thinking!! *SIGH* I always end up in ridicule.
This time, I really feel like an ultimate loser. Usually joke about myself being a loser and all but this time i really feel the impact. Wonder why she wouldn't want to be my friend.
I still recall the moments when I felt lost but God was always there to give me reassurance. No, it wasn't a booming voice that came down from a parting sky, but it was from the Word of God and support from my friends. Also, recollecting the moments of peace and calmness I received when I medidate and spent quiet time with Him. Sometimes, I just feel the need to stop whatever I am doing and acknowledge His presence and authority.
Lights out, Atop a table
staring blankly into the shadowy clouds
embedded upon the starless night sky;
the silhouette of pine trees and mesmerizing lights.
Deep in thought I wonder why,
Assurance is granted, Peace be upon me.
If only these moments could last forever,
but my eyes grow heavy-laden and slowly
I get swept away into slumber.
"Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." - Psalm 62
Tried the new Fish McDippers. I'm the Indesicive and Kiasu Dipper (it's imprinted on the paper that comes with the tray go check it out). Tried out the fish nuggets with TarTar sauce, Thai Chilli Sauce, Chilli Sauce, and even Curry Sauce. Can't wait to try out the upcoming wasabi sauce.
Went home and slept. Had already decided on jogging again at Clementi too. When I woke up in the evening, was greeted by an uncompromising stomach upset. Relieved myself of the Seoul Garden burden carried since yesterday to my relief. When I got to wingfat's place, eric and js were sleeping! so went with wf to jog alone. When js woke up he complained y nv wake him up lol. we tried but you refuse to budge your lazy ass haha!
Bought a grey cargo pants and a long formal pants at JP. Liked the cargo pants a lot. Gotta wear it soon.
Got rejected by Shuwen in Friendster. Worst part was I didn't get any reply or anything. LoL got rejected irl and even in the digital world. Only consolation was Jasper sending me the picture I took with her yesterday. I look retarded in the shot... wasn't looking at the camera... and my eyes was pinning off in another direction... no it isn't what it seems to be.... you know what you're thinking but that's not what I was thinking!! *SIGH* I always end up in ridicule.
This time, I really feel like an ultimate loser. Usually joke about myself being a loser and all but this time i really feel the impact. Wonder why she wouldn't want to be my friend.
I still recall the moments when I felt lost but God was always there to give me reassurance. No, it wasn't a booming voice that came down from a parting sky, but it was from the Word of God and support from my friends. Also, recollecting the moments of peace and calmness I received when I medidate and spent quiet time with Him. Sometimes, I just feel the need to stop whatever I am doing and acknowledge His presence and authority.
Lights out, Atop a table
staring blankly into the shadowy clouds
embedded upon the starless night sky;
the silhouette of pine trees and mesmerizing lights.
Deep in thought I wonder why,
Assurance is granted, Peace be upon me.
If only these moments could last forever,
but my eyes grow heavy-laden and slowly
I get swept away into slumber.
"Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." - Psalm 62
Friday, October 10, 2003
Truly a day of reckoning.
Baccaulaurete service made me thing about God's faithfulness to me. He had seen me through many ups and downs in my days in school and out of school. When I felt low, he gave me friends to encourage me. When my friends couldn't be there, he spreads his arms around me with a peaceful and calming embrace. He let me experience love, a feeling in my heart which had died a long time ago. He renewed my spiritual life and breathed into me revival. My happiness is no longer superficial. There is a joy in my heart even when I go through the deepest pains. Such is the fulfilment when you know there's always someone in control, and it's not yourself, but someone who knows you even better and has great plans for you. When I look into the next phase in my life, I find even more uncertainties and unknowns coming my way. Frankly speaking, I have no idea what I'm going to be haha. But I feel whatever awaits for me ahead in time will not be disappointing.
Phototaking session! Had so much fun taking pics with my classmates, though not everyone was there. Why wasn't Jason (Chin) around? Felt left out again when everyone had so much to do and shots to take with others while I just stoned on a spot waiting to go out with my class for lunch. My greatest achievement was to take a photo with shuwen. YES! WOOO!! She was really nice to accept my request although I could see she looked awkward about me approaching her. Thanks to Jasper's camera too! All my hopes are pinned on him on developing the film now haha...
Finally, our class was willing to budge. First time almost the whole class actually went for a class outing - 25 in total. Inertia is a great force to overcome especially when you're taking the "algebaric sum of our masses". My heart nearly dropped when I heard a lot of dispute about where we were going. Glad that finally we decided to head to Taka first before deciding on the exact venue.
We decided to eat at Seoul Gardens (or most of us). Didn't take too long for us to settle down at our tables (ok a lot of administrative procedures immited from here). I was on a table with Wydia, Shubhra and Cindy - kinda like the King and his servants. Received the royal treatment of having food stuffed onto my plate without having to work much for it muahaha! Just beside mind was Jason (Lim) the master chef serving Matthew, Shufen and Tengleng? Funny thing was when David challenged Carrie to drink up some crap for $100 bucks and she did. When Cindy came back with some mango ice cream, chionged with Jason to grab some. Queue was long and there were pple serving their friends too. Waited almost about 15 minutes. We gave the a piece of our mind by lamenting on how inexperience they were at scooping ice cream, of coz in a joking manner. Later, we found out we were COrN-ed. Overheard 1 SA kia saying "Look, we outnumber AC pple." LMAO pathetic statement of the year.
We roamed around later and I even met Ms Leow at NA City doing some shopping. Left for Lido to catch a movie though not everyone watched. Again, deciding with a big group was not an easy task. We confirmed on watching 28 Days at Cine later. PheW! Along the way also met a few groups of AC pple hanging around. Bumped into Derek along the underpassage.
28 Days isn't the show for me. Don't really like the statement made behind the film about killing and the way they portray life. Sick, real sick. Don't tell me I'm being idealistic and naive about the world and its degenerated state. The world is what we make it to be, and since I have a choice, I would rather value love and relationship over primal survival instinct. Still, it's refreshing to see a British-based production for an English movie rather than another film from Hollywood which we've watched twice too many.
Went off after that to Wingfat's place to decide whether we would be doing anything later in the night. Perhaps party or sharing conversation with js or eric? Didn't do anything in the end so I retired after a long day with mixed emotions. Happy that we had a class outing, sad that didn't do anything else at night; Overjoyed that I got a photo with shuwen, disappointed that that was about it. Glad that I've had so much fun this week, worried about A's. "Surely you have granted him eternal blessings and made him glad with the joy of your presence." - Psalm 21:6
Baccaulaurete service made me thing about God's faithfulness to me. He had seen me through many ups and downs in my days in school and out of school. When I felt low, he gave me friends to encourage me. When my friends couldn't be there, he spreads his arms around me with a peaceful and calming embrace. He let me experience love, a feeling in my heart which had died a long time ago. He renewed my spiritual life and breathed into me revival. My happiness is no longer superficial. There is a joy in my heart even when I go through the deepest pains. Such is the fulfilment when you know there's always someone in control, and it's not yourself, but someone who knows you even better and has great plans for you. When I look into the next phase in my life, I find even more uncertainties and unknowns coming my way. Frankly speaking, I have no idea what I'm going to be haha. But I feel whatever awaits for me ahead in time will not be disappointing.
Phototaking session! Had so much fun taking pics with my classmates, though not everyone was there. Why wasn't Jason (Chin) around? Felt left out again when everyone had so much to do and shots to take with others while I just stoned on a spot waiting to go out with my class for lunch. My greatest achievement was to take a photo with shuwen. YES! WOOO!! She was really nice to accept my request although I could see she looked awkward about me approaching her. Thanks to Jasper's camera too! All my hopes are pinned on him on developing the film now haha...
Finally, our class was willing to budge. First time almost the whole class actually went for a class outing - 25 in total. Inertia is a great force to overcome especially when you're taking the "algebaric sum of our masses". My heart nearly dropped when I heard a lot of dispute about where we were going. Glad that finally we decided to head to Taka first before deciding on the exact venue.
We decided to eat at Seoul Gardens (or most of us). Didn't take too long for us to settle down at our tables (ok a lot of administrative procedures immited from here). I was on a table with Wydia, Shubhra and Cindy - kinda like the King and his servants. Received the royal treatment of having food stuffed onto my plate without having to work much for it muahaha! Just beside mind was Jason (Lim) the master chef serving Matthew, Shufen and Tengleng? Funny thing was when David challenged Carrie to drink up some crap for $100 bucks and she did. When Cindy came back with some mango ice cream, chionged with Jason to grab some. Queue was long and there were pple serving their friends too. Waited almost about 15 minutes. We gave the a piece of our mind by lamenting on how inexperience they were at scooping ice cream, of coz in a joking manner. Later, we found out we were COrN-ed. Overheard 1 SA kia saying "Look, we outnumber AC pple." LMAO pathetic statement of the year.
We roamed around later and I even met Ms Leow at NA City doing some shopping. Left for Lido to catch a movie though not everyone watched. Again, deciding with a big group was not an easy task. We confirmed on watching 28 Days at Cine later. PheW! Along the way also met a few groups of AC pple hanging around. Bumped into Derek along the underpassage.
28 Days isn't the show for me. Don't really like the statement made behind the film about killing and the way they portray life. Sick, real sick. Don't tell me I'm being idealistic and naive about the world and its degenerated state. The world is what we make it to be, and since I have a choice, I would rather value love and relationship over primal survival instinct. Still, it's refreshing to see a British-based production for an English movie rather than another film from Hollywood which we've watched twice too many.
Went off after that to Wingfat's place to decide whether we would be doing anything later in the night. Perhaps party or sharing conversation with js or eric? Didn't do anything in the end so I retired after a long day with mixed emotions. Happy that we had a class outing, sad that didn't do anything else at night; Overjoyed that I got a photo with shuwen, disappointed that that was about it. Glad that I've had so much fun this week, worried about A's. "Surely you have granted him eternal blessings and made him glad with the joy of your presence." - Psalm 21:6
Thursday, October 09, 2003
Lots of lightning flashes in school today. Nope, no rain; but flashes from the camera. Kidding with wingfat all day about it. Everybody was going around taking shots with friends and all. had my fair share with my classmates. School was boooring. I had already lost my focus so just slacked the day through in lessons.
Instead of jogging, went to gym with eric and jeesiang after school. something silly happened outside the gym because one humji kia refuse to accept his challenge *ahem* shall not mention further since no big deal anyway *ahem*. jeesiang our personal trainer really made us sweat it out by pumping iron and tearing muscles and joints. Even continued with basketball 1v1v1 after that. Our arms were quite weak after gym, so many "air balls" (when the ball totally misses the basket) were thrown @_@ tragedy. Free throw shoot out - tied with jeesiang with 4 out of 10.. eric - 8/10 BADASS. If i was serious i would have thrown 10/10 ..ooO well maybe not.
Talked with them having dinner @ S11 clementi. There's kind of an atmosphere of urgency to complete what was started but incomplete. I believe many have a desire to accomplish their goals before the chance is up. Tomorrow's the last day of school, a last opportunity. I pray that everybody will find fulfilment, whether or not they are able to make it through or not. It's not the end of the world ya know =p let's always adopt a optimistic attitude - there may be chances in the future too who knows?
Had so much fun the past few days. Wonder what will we be doing tomorrow. It's really fun to get to know more people.. wished I had expanded my circle of friends. Sometimes I wonder how come I started going out with wingfat jeesiang and eric so often recently. It feels great and I really thank God for giving me great friends to accompany me especially in a time when I felt left alone and seperated.
"One Desire" by Joel Houston, a song I've been listening to and playing has been buzzing in my head for quite a while. Meditating upon this song can really bring revival and a burst of energy through my body! well that's my personal experience and may differ from people to people but I wish to share it with you so it's below: guitar chords provided too!
One Desire
Words & Music by Joel Houston / Hillsong Publishing c2002
Intro: E/G# A2 E/G# A2
Verse 1:
E/G# A2
You gave it all for me
E/G#
My soul desire, my everything
A2 E/G#
And all I am is devoted to You
Verse 2:
A2
How could I fail to see
E/G#
You are the love that rescued me
A2
And all I am is devoted to You
Pre-chorus:
B C#m7 A2
And oh, how could I not be moved, Lord here with you
E B C#m
So have Your way in me, Cause Lord there is just one thing
A2
that I will seek
Chorus:
E B/Eb
This is my cry, My one desire
C#m7 A2
Just to be where You are Lord, Now and forever
E/G# D
Its more than a song, My one desire
F#m7 C#m7 A2 E/G#
Is to be with You, Is to be with You, Jesus
Bridge:
E F#m7 E/G# F#m7 C#m7 B E/G# A2
The one thing, the one thing I ask, Is to be with You (repeat as desired)
Instead of jogging, went to gym with eric and jeesiang after school. something silly happened outside the gym because one humji kia refuse to accept his challenge *ahem* shall not mention further since no big deal anyway *ahem*. jeesiang our personal trainer really made us sweat it out by pumping iron and tearing muscles and joints. Even continued with basketball 1v1v1 after that. Our arms were quite weak after gym, so many "air balls" (when the ball totally misses the basket) were thrown @_@ tragedy. Free throw shoot out - tied with jeesiang with 4 out of 10.. eric - 8/10 BADASS. If i was serious i would have thrown 10/10 ..ooO well maybe not.
Talked with them having dinner @ S11 clementi. There's kind of an atmosphere of urgency to complete what was started but incomplete. I believe many have a desire to accomplish their goals before the chance is up. Tomorrow's the last day of school, a last opportunity. I pray that everybody will find fulfilment, whether or not they are able to make it through or not. It's not the end of the world ya know =p let's always adopt a optimistic attitude - there may be chances in the future too who knows?
Had so much fun the past few days. Wonder what will we be doing tomorrow. It's really fun to get to know more people.. wished I had expanded my circle of friends. Sometimes I wonder how come I started going out with wingfat jeesiang and eric so often recently. It feels great and I really thank God for giving me great friends to accompany me especially in a time when I felt left alone and seperated.
"One Desire" by Joel Houston, a song I've been listening to and playing has been buzzing in my head for quite a while. Meditating upon this song can really bring revival and a burst of energy through my body! well that's my personal experience and may differ from people to people but I wish to share it with you so it's below: guitar chords provided too!
One Desire
Words & Music by Joel Houston / Hillsong Publishing c2002
Intro: E/G# A2 E/G# A2
Verse 1:
E/G# A2
You gave it all for me
E/G#
My soul desire, my everything
A2 E/G#
And all I am is devoted to You
Verse 2:
A2
How could I fail to see
E/G#
You are the love that rescued me
A2
And all I am is devoted to You
Pre-chorus:
B C#m7 A2
And oh, how could I not be moved, Lord here with you
E B C#m
So have Your way in me, Cause Lord there is just one thing
A2
that I will seek
Chorus:
E B/Eb
This is my cry, My one desire
C#m7 A2
Just to be where You are Lord, Now and forever
E/G# D
Its more than a song, My one desire
F#m7 C#m7 A2 E/G#
Is to be with You, Is to be with You, Jesus
Bridge:
E F#m7 E/G# F#m7 C#m7 B E/G# A2
The one thing, the one thing I ask, Is to be with You (repeat as desired)
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
First day in school wif my handphone. Didn't know got so many things to do with it. Busy getting numbers of friends and storing them in my sim card. Woo! almost 50 new entries already.
Rained again.
Went to eat at PS with matthew, tim teh, shufen and jasper. Wanted to eat @ pastamania, ended up in cafe cartel. been a while since we went out together. really appreciate the time we spent together.
Wingfat reformatted his system and now working again... seems like got another virus though wahaha vicious cycle. Gratz~
Went to play street soccer with robert, wingfat, eric and jeesiang. Though the rain had stopped, we were still wet all over head to toe because we were drenched in sweat. Fortunately wingfat lend me his shirt again so i had a fresh change or else would have felt real uncomfortable. (robbed him of lotsa t-shirts over the period of the year - all the lan and pool expeditions - and have yet to return!)
Too tired again to complete today's blog... still looking forward to jogging tmr
Rained again.
Went to eat at PS with matthew, tim teh, shufen and jasper. Wanted to eat @ pastamania, ended up in cafe cartel. been a while since we went out together. really appreciate the time we spent together.
Wingfat reformatted his system and now working again... seems like got another virus though wahaha vicious cycle. Gratz~
Went to play street soccer with robert, wingfat, eric and jeesiang. Though the rain had stopped, we were still wet all over head to toe because we were drenched in sweat. Fortunately wingfat lend me his shirt again so i had a fresh change or else would have felt real uncomfortable. (robbed him of lotsa t-shirts over the period of the year - all the lan and pool expeditions - and have yet to return!)
Too tired again to complete today's blog... still looking forward to jogging tmr
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
A long day spent in school today. 3ple physics, 3ple econs, double maths, double GP lessons and 1 Computing period. Glad i made it through the day though i fell asleep in class. Record attendance for Physics lecture - 7; lowest turn up. Econs remedial was as slack as usual - we could do it on the spot even though we were supposed to prepare for it. Deborah, Christine, Shubhra, Timothy, me and even CeWei who wasn't invited made his appearance. Anyway I had already prepare the outlines yesterday and it was beneficial. We kinda make a ruckus at the end when we went over to disturb Ms Too (we love doing that dun we?) who was giving remedial to Liu Jun and Cindy. She went like: "Shhh... quieten down" and "people are studying". Quite an entertaining scene.
Went jogging with zixiang again. This time, wingfat did not go. Eric went instead. Eric said he had not ran for 4 months and excused himself from performing. My thigh muscles are still aching from the Sunday run (didn't do proper warmup and stretches) and finishing the track was quite a strenuous task for me. We went to Clementi Sports Hall to play basketball after when wingfat also came along. A couple of teams were already hogging the court engaging in serious competition when we reached there. Didn't get to play in the end - again. One of the team consisting of females i recalled to be the one which wingfat called them devils, cause of their preposterous height they achieved (like 175++cm and above).
While having dinner, my little brother was watching some cartoon on Nickelodeon channel, so i watched along. It was a cartoon film on a dog who misplaced his beloved bone (he even had a portrait of it). He went all around the globe searching for it but to no avail. Oh, and he had a companion doggy friend that accompanied him in his effort. Apparently, the bone was on his head all along (floating even!). When he was on the verge of giving up and surrendering to remorse and self-pity, he tripped and the bone fell right in front of him. He was delirious and hugged and kissed his bone he treasured so much. Then, he asked his friend: "Where should I keep it so I will not lose it again?". His reply was "Why not above your head?". And the story ends with the bone being placed on the dog's head once again ^^.
I reflect on the story and find many parallels with the way we treat our precious. Do we shelve aside something important to us or take for granted what we own? Sometimes, when we look everywhere for something dear to us, we do not realize that it was already there all along. In the same way, we try to find a meaning in life or we try to find answers to life. And God is always faithful, being by our side when we need him. Just that sometimes we ignore Him and forget his presence in our lives. When our problems are solved, we tend to also chuck it aside and once again return to our ignorant ways. Let us always acknowledge the Lord in all we do, for "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." - James 1:17. What do we own that does not first belong to Him?
Psalm 63:1
"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water."
Went jogging with zixiang again. This time, wingfat did not go. Eric went instead. Eric said he had not ran for 4 months and excused himself from performing. My thigh muscles are still aching from the Sunday run (didn't do proper warmup and stretches) and finishing the track was quite a strenuous task for me. We went to Clementi Sports Hall to play basketball after when wingfat also came along. A couple of teams were already hogging the court engaging in serious competition when we reached there. Didn't get to play in the end - again. One of the team consisting of females i recalled to be the one which wingfat called them devils, cause of their preposterous height they achieved (like 175++cm and above).
While having dinner, my little brother was watching some cartoon on Nickelodeon channel, so i watched along. It was a cartoon film on a dog who misplaced his beloved bone (he even had a portrait of it). He went all around the globe searching for it but to no avail. Oh, and he had a companion doggy friend that accompanied him in his effort. Apparently, the bone was on his head all along (floating even!). When he was on the verge of giving up and surrendering to remorse and self-pity, he tripped and the bone fell right in front of him. He was delirious and hugged and kissed his bone he treasured so much. Then, he asked his friend: "Where should I keep it so I will not lose it again?". His reply was "Why not above your head?". And the story ends with the bone being placed on the dog's head once again ^^.
I reflect on the story and find many parallels with the way we treat our precious. Do we shelve aside something important to us or take for granted what we own? Sometimes, when we look everywhere for something dear to us, we do not realize that it was already there all along. In the same way, we try to find a meaning in life or we try to find answers to life. And God is always faithful, being by our side when we need him. Just that sometimes we ignore Him and forget his presence in our lives. When our problems are solved, we tend to also chuck it aside and once again return to our ignorant ways. Let us always acknowledge the Lord in all we do, for "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." - James 1:17. What do we own that does not first belong to Him?
Psalm 63:1
"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water."
Monday, October 06, 2003
Almost lost my umbrella again. bring it to school everyday but nv had the opportunity to use it, even though it rained today. glad that it was able to shelter someone else on the way to school. When will it be able to shelter the one i treasure so much?
Wanted to play soccer in the evening but robert overslept then zixiang told me it was cancelled. Anyway had a nice afternoon nap. Waited all day long for my handphone but didn't come. zzz still living in the Stone age? Like weimeng and timothy said during recess, when i get the phone probably won't have much use for it either.
Wingfat's comp got problem again. Going down to see tmr.
Love (1 John 4:7-21)
What is love?
God is love. (v8) God sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. (v9) Jesus died on the cross as an atoning sacrifice for us. (v10)
Who loves?
God loves us. (v10)
Why do we ought to love?
Because God loves us first (v19) and we obey his command out of love (v21) God will live in us and his love is made complete in us (v12). And love is made complete so that we will have confidence on the day of Judgement (v17).
How can we love?
Acknowledging that Jesus is the Son of God (v15) and relying on the love God has for us (v16). Love one another (v11).
Wounds are healed so effectively when I confide with God and depend on His power to take away my pain. Jesus is always there to take away my burden, and i'm glad i can still rejoice even when all seems grim. kinda hard to express the words i want to say yet i dun wish to say it out. Best remedy to all problems: Cry out to the Lord and let him take control, go get a nap and wake up feeling refreshed, then settle it. The problem doesn't seem to be as grave as it seems any more.
Wanted to play soccer in the evening but robert overslept then zixiang told me it was cancelled. Anyway had a nice afternoon nap. Waited all day long for my handphone but didn't come. zzz still living in the Stone age? Like weimeng and timothy said during recess, when i get the phone probably won't have much use for it either.
Wingfat's comp got problem again. Going down to see tmr.
Love (1 John 4:7-21)
What is love?
God is love. (v8) God sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. (v9) Jesus died on the cross as an atoning sacrifice for us. (v10)
Who loves?
God loves us. (v10)
Why do we ought to love?
Because God loves us first (v19) and we obey his command out of love (v21) God will live in us and his love is made complete in us (v12). And love is made complete so that we will have confidence on the day of Judgement (v17).
How can we love?
Acknowledging that Jesus is the Son of God (v15) and relying on the love God has for us (v16). Love one another (v11).
Wounds are healed so effectively when I confide with God and depend on His power to take away my pain. Jesus is always there to take away my burden, and i'm glad i can still rejoice even when all seems grim. kinda hard to express the words i want to say yet i dun wish to say it out. Best remedy to all problems: Cry out to the Lord and let him take control, go get a nap and wake up feeling refreshed, then settle it. The problem doesn't seem to be as grave as it seems any more.
Sunday, October 05, 2003
Worship was refreshing and brings revival to the soul. Started with "He's Able". Kinda felt silly but really merry doing the action for "He's Able". Last time I sang this song was probably back in primary school. If anybody want to know the actions that go along with the song, tag me lol. Simple as the song is, it's really full of inspiring and motivating lyrics. really the song to put you in mood to rejoice in the Lord cause "I know my Lord is able to carry me through!" ^^! Glad that I was able to help kind of indirectly since the worship slides were done by me last time. Then Pei En shared the message for sermon today, the topic on:
Cost of Discipleship
Do we always find an excuse to procrastinate our duties? So many a times I fall to the trap to take the easy way out of things - run away or lay it aside. Being a disciple of Jesus involves a cost. It's not like a $20,000/annum fee for a membership to an exclusive country club. It is a lifelong devotion and dedication of service. In a way, the requirements is minimal and simple, to obey the Lord's commandments (Love God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength, Love your neighbours as youself; Mark 12:30,31). However, I always find it difficult to keep up with the basic teaching of Jesus. Involves a lot of sacrifice. God knows that we're by nature weak and fallible to sin. That's why He sent His son to die for us so that we may seek forgiveness if we repent. Can't remember who, but I recall someone saying "When we fall, do not turn back and dwell in your past. Instead, pick yourself up from where you fell and continue on the road ahead." Think it was Patrick that said that. coz we should press on to finish the race.
Luke 14 15-25
When one of those at the table with him heard this, he said to Jesus. 'Blessed is the man who will eat at the feast in the kingdom of God.' Jesus replied: "A certain man was preparing a great banquet and invited many guests. At the time of the banquet he sent his servant to tell those who had been invited, 'Come for everything is now ready.' But they all alike began to make excuses.
The first said, 'I have just bought a field, and I must go and see it. Please excuse me.'
Another said, 'I have just bought five yoke of oxen, and I'm on my way to try them out. Please excuse me.'
Still another said, 'I just got married, so I can't come.'
The servant came back and reported this to his master. Then the owner of the house became angry and ordered his servant, 'Go out quickly into the streets and alleys of the town and bring in the poor, the crippled, the blind and the lame.' 'Sir,' the servant said, 'what you ordered has been done, but there is still room.' Then the master told his servant, 'Go out to the roads and country lanes and make them come in, so that my house will be full. I tell you, not one of those men who were invited will get a taste of my banquet.'
Luke 14:25-33
Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them he said. If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters - yes, even his own life - he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me acnnot be my disciple. Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Will he not first sit down and estimate the cost to see if he has enough money to complete it? for if he lays the foundation and is no able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule him, saying, 'This fellow began to build and was not able to finish.' Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Will he not first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms in peace. In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple.
Wrote on my commitment slip in areas I want to dedicate myself to God:
1) Time spent with God
2) Living a godly Christian life that is pleasing in His sight (application)
3) Serving in the ministry whole-heartedly
4) Companionship with Shuwen
5) Studies and revision for the A Levels
Ended service with another children sing-along. Once again, it's simple and yet so effective. Puts a smile on everyone's face. I'm grinning from cheek to cheek.
David Chin gave me shufen liujun and meiqi tuition today. Went through Analogue Electronics. Now feel like an OP Amp expert after almost 2 concrete weeks of lessons on this topic also with Mr Lenn. Oh and we almost got lost while trying to get to Chin's house haha. We walked to Nan Hua Primary then scarely shufen tell me it's pei tong primary -_-" anyway we were at the right place so heck.
Went jogging with zixiang and wingfat after tuition. We jogged along the canal between sunset way and clementi. ran to the end of the track realized that I was like halfway to my house from clementi! So that's where the polluted water comes from >> wingfat's toilet bowl. Yucks ok skip the gruesome details. Zixiang found his "goth girl"! Next week he going to start running thirty minutes earlier LOL. Wanted to play bball after that but all too tired and I was stuck at playing this Java Military Strategy game which involves a board of 11 squares and 3 black dots 1 red dot... kinda stupid game but no idea y i got so engrossed in solving it. Anyway went for dinner together also with Eric so quite fun lar.
Tomorrow must remember to get a copy of VJC prelim 2003 econs paper 3 to do for tuesday remedial with Mrs Choo. Also must remember to pass Ms Leow the updated Annual CD!! absent-mindedness kicked in again on friday.
Today's a really fulfilling day!! Love it when I get to spend time with friends. Thank God! It's monday already... time to go school.. wait... zzz... why do I always spend hours writing a blog? Anyway what's a blog....
Cost of Discipleship
Do we always find an excuse to procrastinate our duties? So many a times I fall to the trap to take the easy way out of things - run away or lay it aside. Being a disciple of Jesus involves a cost. It's not like a $20,000/annum fee for a membership to an exclusive country club. It is a lifelong devotion and dedication of service. In a way, the requirements is minimal and simple, to obey the Lord's commandments (Love God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength, Love your neighbours as youself; Mark 12:30,31). However, I always find it difficult to keep up with the basic teaching of Jesus. Involves a lot of sacrifice. God knows that we're by nature weak and fallible to sin. That's why He sent His son to die for us so that we may seek forgiveness if we repent. Can't remember who, but I recall someone saying "When we fall, do not turn back and dwell in your past. Instead, pick yourself up from where you fell and continue on the road ahead." Think it was Patrick that said that. coz we should press on to finish the race.
Luke 14 15-25
When one of those at the table with him heard this, he said to Jesus. 'Blessed is the man who will eat at the feast in the kingdom of God.' Jesus replied: "A certain man was preparing a great banquet and invited many guests. At the time of the banquet he sent his servant to tell those who had been invited, 'Come for everything is now ready.' But they all alike began to make excuses.
The first said, 'I have just bought a field, and I must go and see it. Please excuse me.'
Another said, 'I have just bought five yoke of oxen, and I'm on my way to try them out. Please excuse me.'
Still another said, 'I just got married, so I can't come.'
The servant came back and reported this to his master. Then the owner of the house became angry and ordered his servant, 'Go out quickly into the streets and alleys of the town and bring in the poor, the crippled, the blind and the lame.' 'Sir,' the servant said, 'what you ordered has been done, but there is still room.' Then the master told his servant, 'Go out to the roads and country lanes and make them come in, so that my house will be full. I tell you, not one of those men who were invited will get a taste of my banquet.'
Luke 14:25-33
Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them he said. If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters - yes, even his own life - he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me acnnot be my disciple. Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Will he not first sit down and estimate the cost to see if he has enough money to complete it? for if he lays the foundation and is no able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule him, saying, 'This fellow began to build and was not able to finish.' Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Will he not first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms in peace. In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple.
Wrote on my commitment slip in areas I want to dedicate myself to God:
1) Time spent with God
2) Living a godly Christian life that is pleasing in His sight (application)
3) Serving in the ministry whole-heartedly
4) Companionship with Shuwen
5) Studies and revision for the A Levels
Ended service with another children sing-along. Once again, it's simple and yet so effective. Puts a smile on everyone's face. I'm grinning from cheek to cheek.
David Chin gave me shufen liujun and meiqi tuition today. Went through Analogue Electronics. Now feel like an OP Amp expert after almost 2 concrete weeks of lessons on this topic also with Mr Lenn. Oh and we almost got lost while trying to get to Chin's house haha. We walked to Nan Hua Primary then scarely shufen tell me it's pei tong primary -_-" anyway we were at the right place so heck.
Went jogging with zixiang and wingfat after tuition. We jogged along the canal between sunset way and clementi. ran to the end of the track realized that I was like halfway to my house from clementi! So that's where the polluted water comes from >> wingfat's toilet bowl. Yucks ok skip the gruesome details. Zixiang found his "goth girl"! Next week he going to start running thirty minutes earlier LOL. Wanted to play bball after that but all too tired and I was stuck at playing this Java Military Strategy game which involves a board of 11 squares and 3 black dots 1 red dot... kinda stupid game but no idea y i got so engrossed in solving it. Anyway went for dinner together also with Eric so quite fun lar.
Tomorrow must remember to get a copy of VJC prelim 2003 econs paper 3 to do for tuesday remedial with Mrs Choo. Also must remember to pass Ms Leow the updated Annual CD!! absent-mindedness kicked in again on friday.
Today's a really fulfilling day!! Love it when I get to spend time with friends. Thank God! It's monday already... time to go school.. wait... zzz... why do I always spend hours writing a blog? Anyway what's a blog....
